My Boy'sterous Reflections

30 November 2009

A Grandparent's Love.

Two very special people in my life celebrate their 57th wedding anniversary today ..

Two very special people in my life are my Grandparents and on their special day , i dedicate this poem to them that i came across on the internet ..

"I was thinking of Love,and you came to mind.....

I have many memories I would like to rewind.

Do you remember those days I would lie in your lap?....

As you doodled my ears,I would take a short nap.

I'm remembering the nights that we spent together.....

You would scratch my back gently,ever so tender.

As I rewind a bit more,I am seeing so much fun....

I'm remembering the cozy winters and sitting in the sun

Those are just a few of the many memories I have.....

Let's rewind a bit more to when I was bad.

I'm sorry for the times when I made you cry.....

Looking back at the past, I'm not sure I know why.

I know as a child I was stubborn, selfish, and strange.....

But look at me now, and how much I've changed.

I assume looking back, It's hard to understand.....

That today I'm quite normal, I think God lent a hand.

The ending is near, I think I've said enough

I could go on forever,but ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!

All joking aside,I would be up all night.....

If I continued this poem, and continued to write.

There's just not enough words to express all the love.....

Other that the words written above.

So I Thank You!....

From the bottom of my heart, For loving me no matter what. "

- By April Johnson

Wishing you both a very Happy Anniversary !!

17 November 2009

"If only someone had helped...if only i had done things differently...maybe he would be still alive.." and as i listened to her , a shiver ran down my spine and i was completely numb ..She was my friends mom and while my friend had lost his dad , she had lost her spouse ..

Ironically for me this was not the first time i had seen a friend lose a parent / sibling or loved one and each time it seems even worse than the last time...but then no one can be prepared for death.. its a reality.. a reality i wish i did not have to deal with ..

Admittedly so, i struggled with my self to make that phone call ..no doubt we knew each other since school but then that was a long time ago ..our lives had moved on and we had gone our own separate ways ..we had completely lost touch ..but life is strange and who knew our paths would cross again ..infact i never imagined it would be under such circumstances ..

I pondered on what could i possibly say to comfort someone who had lost a loved one ?? Saying i understood would be a blatant lie ..Infact i believe one cant possibly fathom how much it hurts to lose someone ..till u go through a situation like this ..

But maybe this is exactly the line of reasoning that led me to lose a friend i cudnt get to calling when he lost his mother and i wasnt ready to lose another old friend ...We may have not been the best of buddies but there is a sort of comfort that one shares with friends from school and picking up right from where you left off seems to come naturally ..Thank God for small mercies ..this same feeling of solace led me to make the call ..

His lugubrious voice conveyed it all , the devastation and pain of losing a parent , the angst of having to put up a brave facade, the queer feeling of having to grow up overnight ..and as we talked, he whispered a thank you and then it struck me it wasnt so much about what i was supposed to say , just a tacit expression conveying his friends were there for him should he need them more than sufficed .. I was at peace with myself ..

As i pray to the Lord for giving him and his family the strength to endure this , i also pray for fortitude for helping them build their life back again ..and while Death is an imminent reality of life ..it also teaches a lot about Life ..it teaches you to enjoy life while you still can ...So spread cheer and happiness wherever you go , laugh a lot , hug a lot , say i love u a lot , eat , drink , splurge , take chances , be goofy ..do whatever makes you happy and brings contentment in your life ..

Live life to the fullest !

02 November 2009

This is it .

Pria 4:48 PM 2 Comments

A bittersweet testament to the fact that MJ was and always will be the greatest entertainer of all times, "THIS IS IT" the documentary has been culled from more than 100 hours of footage of the King of Pop's rehearsals for his 50 shows in London ..and while the debate continues as to whether Michael would have liked his fans to watch this footage or this is simply a gimmick to regain the money invested ,i refuse to comment because all i know is that im thankful to Kenny Ortega , MJ's friend and director for sharing this with the world ..

Watching the documentary is no doubt like watching a work in progress and i wish i could have seen the finished product but what is truly remarkable about this documentary is that this is probably the closest one can get to seeing MJ as he was , the man in his element ..

It almost made me forget for a while that MJ was no more , it felt oddly surreal , like i was a part of his crew , watching him , cheering and applauding him and as it came to an end i felt angered and anguished , having to live with the reality of having found and lost him .. yet again.. all in a span of less than two hours ..

"This is it " is not just for MJ fans, its for everyone who's ever hummed a MJ song ..Quoting MJ "Its an adventure , a great adventure , wanna take them places they've never been before , wanna show them times they've never seen before." and in true spirit , you see the man and his vision.. a concert that was , would have been mindblowing and truly mindboggling !

"This is it" reveals Michael in a completely different light ..this is MJ unplugged ..The critics may have claimed that MJ had reached his nadir but all you see on stage is a man oozing confidence, a man in total control ,at all times, knowing exactly what he wanted and how he wanted it ..He was the singer , the dancer , the musician , the architect and more , he was everything and he seemed more real and human than he had seemed in the last decade or so.

MJ was always a precisionist and his insatiable quest for perfection lead him to outdo himself every time he came on stage and performed for his ardent admirers ..these shows would have been no different ..the sets were fantastic and the conceptualization reflects sheer brilliance and thats where the tragedy lies too , as you are constantly reminded of the fact that there is so much more to the man who was never fully understood , so much more the world could have seen ..

Best summarized in one of the articles i read online, it says "Watching the documentary brings the echoing presence of Jackson back into his body and back on stage..where we came to know and love the man as a gifted performer. "

I too found the documentary to be both visually appealing and sonically arresting but I think i am still in a state of suspended disbelief cause the movie in itself is such an incredibly, emotionally charged voyage ...its a tug on my heartstrings coz on one hand it makes me celebrate having seen this verbatim and unmediated rare behind the scenes footage of MJ as he was , on the other hand it makes me silently weep because he's gone too soon and i dont want to bid good bye ..not yet ..but in MJ's own words , words that proved prophetic ..

"This is it ..This is the final curtain call " ..